Saturday, September 19, 2009

Lead On


How easy is it to allow someone else to lead? I know it isn't easy for me at all, because I am a "control freak". Allowing someone else to lead is probably THE MOST difficult thing for me to do. But, I love how God works on my heart, always subtle and very gentle. Earlier this summer, God revealed to me something about my nature that I needed to change, and it was a little scary. My family and I went to a water park, we had a great time with all the fun water slides. Water everywhere. But, in the midst of the fun, I discovered something about myself just by going down a really big water slide backwards! I hate not being in control, not being able to see where I am going or having any control in the matter. Whether that is a particular circumstance in my life, my home or whatever else there is to control, I HATE not having control. Now honestly, I did know this about myself, but have actually been pretty proud of the fact that I am a control freak. The funny thing is, God knows this about me too and He is asking me if I trust Him enough to go down the "water slide" of life backwards! Can I do it? We will see. This will be a huge test of my obedience to Him.